Forgive!

 “Beloved, do not avenge yourselves, but rather give place to wrath; for it is written, ‘Vengeance is Mine, I will repay, ‘says the Lord”  Romans 12:19

We live in a broken world and cannot be fixed until Jesus Christ returns. A world that does not know good from evil and good from bad. The truth is just the beginning. “All this is but the beginning of birth pain” Matthew 24:8. Christian who are content to turn a blind eye to the injustices suffered by others are missing the point of what it means to walk as Jesus did. We cannot fix the broken system. We can not stop the injustice. But, what we can do: Is return to the altar, We can return to the message of the cross, We can return to our first love, We can repent, We can have true teaching, We can get rid of spirit of Jezebel in the church, We can wake up, We can hold fast what we have so that no one take away your crown, We can not be lukewarm, he will vomit us, we can have unity in the spirit, we can pray, forgive and have a true repentance. 

When we pray things shift. The prophet Amos said: “When a society has shrugged off God's law he who is prudent will keep silent in such a time, for it is an evil time” Amos 5:13. What do you do when injustice seems to prevail? Do you think that if you repay evil for evil you will feel better? The answer is No. After observing what unfolded with Charlie Kirk, I recognized that while we are not in the public eye, the challenges and injustices we endure hold meaning and deserve attention.  Our struggles against injustices matters. I will not remain silent in the face of wrongdoing! Losing jobs, friends, and family has been worth it- and again, I will not remain silent and I am committed to standing for what is right, no matter the cost. What happened on September 10, 2025 was a profound injustice. When we are treated with injustice, It is right to ask God to please avenge that injustice. Prayer is crucial to survive! 

First, this is  a big burden. “Forgive them because they do not know what they are doing”. Luke 23:34 

The good news is that Jesus can and will restore your heart. “I will give you a new heart and put a new spirit within you”. Ezekiel 36”26. Unconfessed sin and unforgiveness can hinder prayers. 

I confess that I have been deeply wounded. Some of us have been hurt by those in authority, Others have been abused, molested, or sexually assaulted. Perhaps, others have a soul wound from childhood that never fully healed.  This is my story. My testimony. 

Forgiveness is key for healing. When unforgiveness takes root, it produces resentment. Unforgiveness destroys us. Unforgiveness quickly entangles and impressions us in a cage of bitterness. We become trapped and haunted. Unforgiveness can negatively impact your health. I ignored many phone calls and blocked many. I ended up isolated in a cave. I was getting myself in a dangerous place. I did not want anything to do with the minister. I became disobedient. I complained to God and blamed everyone. I thought it was the end. But this is not how this story ends. I am still writing. He is the author. 

As a Nurse one day in my bitterness my patient who was healing from bone cancer (Osteosarcoma) was in pain. She had this huge wound that needed to be cleaned, irrigated and changed her dressing. One day, she said to me: “It doesn't matter if you change the bandage”. “She said: “Everyone changes the bandage but no one really gets to the roots”. “If the wound is deep, it needs healing”. I had tears in my eyes. I was trying to hide under the masks. She says: “This is exactly what happens to many people”. “You can not take care of the superficial, It will spread and cause infection”. “You have to get to the root and kill it once and for all”. I was very emotional for a long time. I was sensitive. My emotions took the best of me. I walked away and cried. Later that day; I asked her what do you mean? She did not remember anything. I hid in a  cave, I didn't want to be seen. I did not want anything to do with social media. Unfortunately, I still had to get up and work. My days off were in the cave. I was really feeling alone and abandoned. I knew it was time to fight! Seeing my family and seeing the results of my  bitterness only opened doors to the enemy. My place was not in the cave. I was exhausted from even breathing. I was not sleeping nor eating. I had bags under my eyes. No one was able to understand me. No one knew the pain and agony I felt.  As a leader; I failed God, I struggled with so much injustice everywhere I looked. People I trusted betrayed my trust. I battle with lies, jealousy, rejection as a child, and rejection as a leader. I lament and step down as a Pastor. I knew I was sick from my heart. I did not want anything to do with ministry. I was feeling like a child on time out, feeling unworthy, weak, hopeless and abandoned by God. I was wounded; I needed an emergency heart transplant. Many saw my spiritual death. But, God saw purpose. I was invited to an event. My daughter was excited about the prophetic activation. She knew her mother needed God. I just wanted to sit in the last chair and did not want to be bothered. I did not want to be known. I was embarrassed. I did not want to be seen or recognized.  As they call for prayer. I did not move. I was desperate for a breakthrough. At that moment few women went up for prayer. The preacher says: “I know when the Holy Spirit speaks to me, and is not you nor you or you, Three women standing in the front of the altar for prayer as he called three particular women who were rape as a child on his right side. He called one woman on his left who was molested as a child.  He continued: “I will let you know that is me talking to you”. He said: “Do not be ashamed”. “This is not your fault”. “You need to be free”. “I was ashamed, I felt so dirty. At that moment as you know; “There was a fire like never before; he asked for me to put my hand on my heart; there was a fire; As he renounced, he began to pray and every woman lifted up their hands. He began to start liberation; As every woman repeated: “I resign and disengage, I forgive, and on and on… “ I did not move from my chair.  “I saw the nine year old girl who was hurt” The pastor said: Repeat, now and you will be free. He continues by saying “this is not your fault.” You must forgive all who hurt you. “You have been paralyzed”. “Your minister and your career is paralyzed”. “All doors are closed”.  It hurts, but you have to obey. “Obedience unlocks many promises.” Get out  the cave! That is not your place. At that instance my eyes were open. I confessed my child abuse, rejection, I confess my unforgiveness from leaders and family”. I began to fight back and close all doors. At that instance, I began to hear different people talking in different languages. I was able to hear God’s voice again. I asked. How many languages are in this church? Why are they talking in other languages? She looked at me and said: What language? It is only Spanish. Again, I was listening to different languages. I was going crazy. I was not only listening to other languages; I was understanding every tongue and every language. My eyes were open. I was so sick from my stomach, exhausted and feeling like I was about to vomit. I knew then, I was free. From this point, I was free. I was transformed. Something was broken inside of me. I praise God for letting me free. Unforgiveness is too much of a burden for anyone. 

I was forgiven and I was restored for the Glory of God. I pray for all who hurt me, the most difficult was to forgive my family. God gave me a new heart. I can now look back and see what the enemy intended for evil, God used it for his glory. I can testify to his glory. My ministry is clean and this is a new transformation of open heart. My prayer life has increased, my reading of the Bible has been intense. The things that God has been revealing are amazing. The faith has been growing everyday. 

Lets pray!

Father God, we repent and we call upon you. We need your healing. We need strength. Give us your eyes to see what you see. I can ask you Lord, as you restore me; I call upon the name of Jesus. I declare a new heart, I declare humbleness, I declare freedom, I declare forgiveness, I declare that you open up their eyes so that they may see your power and glory. Jesus we repent and we give you the lock of forgiveness, we today let go every evil person who hurt us, we forgive all leaders who hurt us, we forgive our family, we forgive and let go any accusation, plot against us, we give you our weakness, we forgive our parents, we today let go all fear, anxiety that the enemy have try to steal our joy, I command you with all the authority that God has given me; to leave now. We are not fighting against flesh and blood enemies, but against rulers and authorities of the unseen world against mighty power in this dark world. You are not the author of confusion, but of peace. We claim your promise that if we resist the devil he will flee from us. Jesus we rebuke satans power and rebuke the power of any of all evil influences over our household. We bind Satan's power against us.  We thank you for giving us the power to cast out demons in your name Jesus. Jesus we engage in a spirit battle using the whole armor of God. We will put on the full armor of God. We will stand firm with the belt of truth buckled around our waist and take the helmet of salvation in the name of Jesus we forgive and let go. We are free in Jesus' name. Hallelujah Amen

What is Faith?

 “For nothing will be impossible with God”. ~Luke 1:37

What do you do when you've waited so long and somebody is telling you that the impossible is still possible? What do you do when the promise just doesn't make sense? “Is anything too hard for the Lord?” Genesis 18:14. You must be mindful that when it comes to the promises of God,  you shouldn't take matters into your own hands. Giving up is not the answer. Doubting hinders the progress of your promises, paralyzes you and keeps you stagnant. 

Jesus called his disciples men of little faith. The men who we thought are supposed to have the fatih that moves mountains after walking with Jesus for three years; Yet, they battle with faith. Faith is the confidence in what we hope for and assurance about what we do not see. Faith is believing even when you can not see.  How can you believe in something you can not see? Faith is to trust.  Faith is to have confidence. Faith is when we walk by Faith and not by sight. The Bible tells us in 2 Corinthians that “those you cannot see are eternal”. However, “the things that you see are temporary”. Your lock of faith is temporary. This situation is temporary. Your pain is temporary. Thank God for his goodness. God can do more than we can ask nor imagine. Nothing is impossible for God. He understands that all we need is Faith as mustard seed to grow. “For in hope we were saved. But hope which is seen is not hope. For how can one hope for what he already sees?

Faith is one of those words that is commonly used by most people, even those who are not Christians.  Have you ever searched for the definition of faith? In one definition; it is said that faith refers to belief in something strong despite lacking any evidence. Hebrews 11:1 says: “Now faith is the assurance of things hoped for, the conviction of things not seen.” Any unbelief makes us waver concerning the promise of God. I have learned in my walk with God that every child of God must learn obedience.  It is impossible to receive all his promises if we are walking in obedience. Obedience will open doors that have been closed. The bible tells us that It is impossible to please God without faith. When we lock faith; we doubt God. The Bible also says: “Even demons have faith’. James 2:19. Faith comes from hearing God's word. Faith needs to grow. There is hope. If you lock Faith; the good news is that God can and will help us in our unbelief.  “God is not a man, that he should lie, neither the son of man, that he should change his mind. Has he said, and will he not do it? Or has he spoken, and will not fulfill it?” Numbers 23:19. 

Lets pray!

Father God, we thank you for everything! Open our eyes, not to see the world more clearly, but to see you. We ask in the name of Jesus that you give us unwavering faith. Through prayer we ask for wisdom, guidance to deepen our belief in only you God. Help us overcome any doubts and help us grow our trust. Teach us how to wait. Give us discernment and revelation to know when it is from you. Thank you for listening to our prayers. We love you Jesus! Thank you for the gift of faith!  I praise you, Lord… Hallelujah 

Pray for Your Children!

“A woman giving birth to a child has pain because her time has come; but when her baby is born she forgets the anguish because of her joy that a child is born into the world” ~John 16:21

I will never be a perfect mother but I will always be a praying mother. I will always stand in the gap for my four children. “Children are a gift from the Lord”, Proverbs 22:6, “Train up a child in the way he should go”, The bible is our best guide to train our children. My children are a reward and it is a true privilege to have all four, but I can not do it by myself.  It requires nurturing and guidance to grow into healthy, thriving human beings in such a cold generation.  Prayer is my weapon. I am a prayer warrior. My biggest strength is prayer. Do not tell me that nothing has work; unless you pray and fast. The answer will always be prayer. So go pray for your children and you will receive your answer! Pray, Pray, Pray, Pray, Pray…..

If you're a parent you probably do a lot for your kids.  Do you pray? While I wish my own mom was a role model of prayer, I make sure that my children have a role model so that they can plant the seed in their children and children of their children.  As the Bible says: “Am a jealous God, visiting the iniquity of the father on the children, on the third and fourth generation”. A praying mother is not just birthing children, she is breaking curses, birthing legacies, prophets and deliverers.  

Raising children is not easy. The obstacles we are up against are more challenging than ever before. But today in Butterfly by Grace “Mommy and Daughter’s blog” I encourage all women to discover the profound power of a mother’s prayer, which can change your current story into a testimony. A mother’s prayer can transcend physical limitations to guide, protect, and nurture your children and grandchildren.  There is something about a mother that prays. Where there is a praying mother there is victory. Mother’s protect, comfort, nurse, guide, Love, Teach, Hug, Kiss, provide, encourage, discipline, and influence their children, among other things. A mothers prayer transcends physical barriers and reaches where she cannot. I can testify that most of my prayers for my children have been answered.  There is something special, unique, and humble in a mothers prayers. There is a breakthrough and generational curses being broken; where there is a mother standing in the gap. Jesus has given us all power over the enemy. “Truly I tell you whatever you bind on earth will be bound in heaven, and whatever you loose on earth will be loose in heaven”. Mathew 18:18.  

Lets Pray!

Father God we pray in the name of Jesus for our struggling sons and daughters, for every child and grandchild reading this blog; we pray for their hurting, confusion and wrestling with tough decisions.  Father God; many of these kids have walked away from you, from their faith. Lord, give parents wisdom as they seek to be an encouragement to them. May they call on you for wisdom and help in their time of need. May their children be young men of noble character, uncompromising in their faith. We pray that they do not feel inferior but will grow in confidence knowing that their identity is found in Jesus Christ. May they surround themselves with people of faith. May these children know their calling. Give them prophetic dreams. Put a burning fire within them. Hand pick their friends, God. We pray that they learn the importance of having a prayer life. Lord, over all I pray for all moms struggling. We agree with Jesus and take over all authority over our children. Put your spirit on all moms praying for their children. I declare in the name of Jesus that all praying warriors are lifted high, that we humble ourselves, we repent,  we confess; there is power in the name of Jesus. Jesus is not dead! Satan, I bind you right now in the name of Jesus. You have no authority over our children. Because we are submitted to God, we can resist you and you have to flee. In the name of Jesus. Amen

 

 

Anxiety in the Heart!

God is Within her!

 “God is within her, she will not fall; God will help her at break of day…The Lord Almighty is with us; the God of Jacob is our fortress.” Psalm 46:5,7

Have you ever felt that God is with everyone else and answers all their prayers except for yours? Have you ever felt that you are not worthy? Have you ever felt your prayers are not being heard? 

God loves you and wants to use you. No matter how bad things get, we have nothing to fear. We're vulnerable to unpredictable situations, but in God, we have rest. “I have told you these things, so that in me you may have peace. But take heart! I have overcome the world.” Our hope is in the Lord. He is our Rock. He is our salvation. 

Life offers us challenges each and every day some other day worse than others. We are being bombarded with evil in the world today; and the Love of many has grown cold.  The Bible tells us that because of the increase of wickedness, the Love of most will grow cold, this is a warning given to the Church. When our prayers aren't answered, our natural response is to pull away, thinking God doesn't care and doesn't really love us. But it is these times when we need to draw closer to God even when we don't see anything happening. There was once or a few times in my life that I remember asking God to reveal my heart.  I was praying wondering if there may be some hindering in my prayers from being answered. True is that many of my prayers; most and all have been answered for the Glory of God. I remember when I found out that I was pregnant with twins. The  hospital that I worked at the time had a chapel where I loved to pray.  Knowing that I already have two boys; I pray every day to God to please consider and listen to the petitions of my heart. I ask every day to please grant me the desires of my heart to have a baby girl.  God knew exactly that asking him for a girl was more than just a baby girl. I have always been a loner. Not known for popularity, never walked with groups and never had many friends. I grew up rejected by my siblings and hated before I knew it. God answered my petition with a daughter. She is today a leader in the church for the Glory of God. I prayed for my husband. God gave me a man of God. His love and respect for me means everything. He is there on my good days and on my bad days he still loves me. I did not want to get married. I really made his life hard. God sent me so many messengers to tell me; he is the one. We have been together and counting our blessings for twenty-three years. I pray for a house. God bless us with a beautiful home. I pray for my career. I pray for God to help me pass my boards. Today, for the Glory of God I am a registered nurse in New York and New Jersey. I just graduated with my BSN. God is still writing my page. I am currently doing my masters. I pray for my two older boys and today he is serving the Lord. My journey has many bruises. I have failed. I have been  betrayed two many times. I have been humiliated by publicity and I have failed many materials in college. I struggle with rejection and fear for years. I pray and pray to God. I have been redeemed. He paid my debt. Today, I walked with God, and not ashamed, not embarrassed and nor as a failure. Life is not easy. Life will throw you curve balls.  God will answer your prayer before you know it. As God sent Gabriel to let Daniel know what was happening in the heavens. After three weeks of mourning and seeking answers, Daniel experienced another divine encounter, which explained to him the spiritual battle that was going on. Stay firm and keep praying. God will send you a messenger too. He is listening to your prayers. He will give you the strength you need. Today in Butterfly by Grace Mommy and daughter blog I want to encourage you. Don't stop praying. You can do this. You are not alone! Remember “Our fight is not against flesh and blood, but it is against the rulers, it is against the power of this world and against the spiritual forces of evil in the heavenly realms.” Please share with us your comets! We want to pray for you. God bless you.

Lets Pray, 

In the name of Jesus we pray for all reading this blog. We pray for unity, mercy and love. Father God, your children cry out to you. We come asking you to hear, listen, and answer our heartfelt prayers, praising and thinking of you with gratefulness.  We know you answer prayers even before we ask. Today we check the condition and attitudes of our hearts, we pour our heart asking to change us, and take away anything that hinders our prayer. Reveal the root of our conditions, help us, change us for your glory God. We know that you can and you will.  Oh Jesus come and help us. As the battle rages in the heavenly realm, please Lord just give us the strength.  Thank you for answering our prayers in the name of Jesus.